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i slept for 12 hours last night/today. very much unlike me. awoken by a bang on the door and jumping out of bed, thinking the sofa had arrived, turns out it was an unneccessary knock as the postpan just put the letter through the door anyway. epic headrush.

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jesus, the term lazy sunday has taken itself to a whole new level. my only attempt at effort for the day has been putting on leggings and a hoody while jades parents were here in an attempt to show them i'm not a 100% bum.

i put forward the challenge for someone to find something more enthralling than facebook or websites dedicated to chuck norris.

the wolf

this week has been ace. faye and i have been so busy getting everything sorted. i am so glad she has moved in now, plus being woken up with a cuppa is an added bonus of living with faye.

we have been putting a lot of time and effort into the house this week, late on wednesday night, about 1am, we started ripping wallpaper off from the kitchen walls. next day we went to homebase and got some paint, i made it my mission to finish it in one day. 11 and a half hours of solid work, my fingers are still cramped into the paintbrush holding position. torture. i don't know what motivated me to do it all, i normally get bored of projects so quickly and look for something else to start then not end up finishing.

i've been feeling like less of a misanthrope lately. i guess now everything is sorted- the deposit on the house, rent etc, most of the underlying stress has subsided. thank fuck, i thought my hair was about to start falling out.

got woken up at 6am today by cats fighting outside, one of which was my cat. i am getting increasingly worried about his wildcat nature!!! i'm still pretty tired at 11:32am, the plan is to chill and watch the remainder of pulp fiction that i was too tired to watch last night.

xo

you're so cool, you're so cool, you're so cool

what a strange couple of weeks i have had. it's been like bi polar for beginners, one day i will be up next day i will be at my lowest.

i decided i needed to take a break from all the stress and went off to swindon to see some friends and family for a few days. probably the best thing i have done in such a long time. you get such a realisation about who are the most important people in your life when you go through shit, in some ways i'm glad that those things happened because it really did make me realise my true friends.

after i got back from swindon, i went off to leeds at 6:45am sunday morning for slam dunk fest. 15 miles outside leeds, benhams tyre burst so we had to sit on the side of the m1 and wait for the AA. 7 hours in total that journey took. not an ideal day after being up at the crack of dawn.

slam dunk itself was 'okay'. i didn't get to spend enough time with the people i wanted to, the place was too hot and packed full of 5000 sweaty bettys. much worse than last year.

you shine so bright it's insane, you put the sun to shame.

again, i am guilty of neglecting my blogspot. i don't know what in hell i have been doing. it's not like i haven't had no spare time to update, i was unemployed for near enough 2 months. thats right, i am employed now. only time will tell how long for.

this is me today. the big difference between picture "a" and picture "b" is bad news. can you see it written all over my face? i can. but i know my face better than anyone else does.

regardless of bad news, i was still watching the inbetweeners and i still felt the need to take a photo of myself.

but still, you know how i do and what i always do is let my thoughts eat my brains until the pain makes me explode with word vomit!! it's just the way i am. i wouldn't call myself a loose cannon, it's what you should love about me.



it was wonderful just sitting here feeling like a melodramatic misanthrope for the past five minutes, only for my favourite song to start playing off itunes. lavley.

i like-a do da cha cha.

it's 19:40pm. i'm finally chilling out. i haven't listened to music all day, mainly due to the fact that there is a very noise punjab next door blasting his music and there is definitely a microphone involved. my chair is actually vibrating. but it's mainly because i feel actually content with being in a quiet room for once.

we have finally moved house, i have to admit, it was kind of sad saying goodbye to the old flat but my feelings of sadness lasted all of 30 seconds when i remembered all the shit we have been through there. don't get me wrong, there were good times....but i guess the bad ones had more impact and have just impaled themselves into my brain. forever wimbledon will be associated with arguments and betrayal.
the new house is so lovely, i could turn to the left and look out my window right now if i wanted to and see trees and trees. and small children playing with a washing line in the garden next door.

i can also see now how easy it is to get addicted to call of duty. i've been playing it for the past two days and it is very very addictive.

i'm gonna probe ya, 'cos i'm the intern.

i was in my kitchen a while ago looking for something to eat, i decided to feed the cat because he wouldn't shut up, so i put some biscuits in his bowl. as i stood up my eyes drifted to the wide open windows of the upstairs flat next door ours, to my horror seeing a PENIS. i have not once bumped into my next door neighbours but i guarantee, four days before we are due to move house, i am going to be leaving my house at the exact same time he is and all i will be able to see is his willy.

moving day is on thursday. although we are moving all our big stuff up tomorrow. this means i am having to spend 4 nights sleeping in the spare bed with jade- the most brutal sleeper ever. you wake up with bruises, seriously.

it's 00:30, i've been packing up my stuff, kind of, got bored so quickly so i have decided to get up early and do it.

literally have nothing else to say except patrick swayze roolz, always.
xo