Saturday, 21 February 2009

getting up and america

i should probably think about getting washed and dressed since it's almost 4pm and emily is coming round soon. i always love seeing emily, i don't see her enough these days. i really miss being 18, not having any worries about money etc, the only things we cared about was when heather and bryan were next going to france so we could plan our 'holidays' round emily's house.

i just watched bowling for columbine. i saw farenheit 911 and some other bits and pieces michael moore has done but this one blew me away. it really makes me wonder what grounds america use to base their loyal patriotics on. the americans are by far the most patriotic country in the world, yet bowling for columbine seemed to pinpoint every reason americans should want to flee. or at least live an amish existence.

i've been there a few times and i remember having to have photographs and fingerprints taken in new york. understandable seeing as it's been a city victimised by terror, but as michael moore proved, the americans invested millions in cia training toward osama bin laden; without that training would it of been possible for the terror attacks to be carried out?! it's a very political topic for those who have also seen zeitgeist and loose change.

this is a boring blog, i'm going to go and get ready.

Friday, 20 February 2009

00:13 GMT

ahh i'm so bored. after arguing with the virgin media guy for a longggg time, after he spent 45 minutes not helping me whatsoever, i called back and the guy fixed the problem straight away. hello 20mb broadband! it enabled me to be able to watch the biggie film.
it was brilliant. i love when actors do amazing justice to some of the most influential people ever lived. joaquin phoenix as johnny cash and sam riley as ian curtis, two fantastic examples.

so work is getting me down and to cheer myself up, i have been reading a book which i got out of the library written by kate kray called 'the 20 worst crimes ever committed'. i'm joking, i'm not that sadistic, i'm reading it out of pure curiosity- not to cheer myself up- it's brutal.

i was thinking today about how things change so quickly. we found out yesterday that our house that we rent is going to be put on the market by our landlady (for an extortionate price might i add). we could be out of here in two months. it was christmas only two months ago, it seems like no time whatsoever.

speaking of time, i don't have time to be writing this. i have been out of my head exhausted for the past few days and i need to get some rest!!


Thursday, 12 February 2009


oh gosh, i can't believe it's 03:41am!! and i am actually having 3 good msn conversations. one about relationships with faye, sleeping patterns with sophie, and ash is telling me how he has been playing world of warcraft since 8pm (absolute nerd).

i have no idea why i'm up. i'm sitting in bed and thinking to myself, if i have fuck all to do tomorrow, i may as well sleep in til noon.

i think i'll go to the library and get some books out tomorrow. i spend too much time watching tv and being on the internet. i don't want to become some fat lazy cyber freak.

i'm highly dissappointed as i was supposed to see emily tomorrow. we go off to rome together, then don't see each other for nearly a year and a half! but alas plans have fallen through so all i have to look forward to is the fact ethan is coming round for late night chats and bringing clint eastwoods new film with him YES!

OH today i got signed up with an agency who supply tv and film extras and walk on's. this means you may see me on eastenders! i really would love to be able to sit in the queen vic. meet peggy. maybe phil.

Wednesday, 11 February 2009

best served ice cold

literally after just saying the words 'best served ice cold' in my head i need to get some ice cold diet coke. i intend on sending jon down to the shop as he forgot to get me my happy hippo earlier. i love those things.

i've decided since i am god damn awful with money, i am keeping a record of all the money i spend. literally every penny, even the spare 1p's and 2p's that i chuck into charity boxes, they will be noted. it will give me a clear and concise cut of what garbage my money is being wasted on.

if i wasn't so addicted to buying dvd's and diet coke it would be so much simpler.
as i laid in bed last night, not being able to sleep, i started to worry that i am going to end up with rotting teeth with the amount of soda i drink. everytime i see one of those pictures on cigarette packets of green tounges and decayed teeth i start screaming in my head. AAARGGH.

i joined the library yesterday. it's my attempt to start getting back into reading, although i don't have a CLUE where to start, so if someone can recommend any good books that would be aweeee-some.


p.s. i don't know why, but lately i seem to be enjoying this dashing group of studmuffins for the first time since 1997:

Monday, 9 February 2009

the dead flag blues.

i don't know if this is about the apocalypse or money, but i have a picture in my head everytime i hear it....

The car's on fire and there's no driver at the wheel
And the sewers are all muddied with a thousand lonely suicides
And a dark wind blows
The government is corrupt
And we're on so many drugs
With the radio on and the curtains drawn

We're trapped in the belly of this horrible machine
And the machine is bleeding to death

The sun has fallen down
And the billboards are all leering
And the flags are all dead at the top of their poles

It went like this

The buildings tumbled in on themselves
Mothers clutching babies picked through the rubble and pulled out their hair

The skyline was beautiful on fire
All twisted metal stretching upwards
Everything washed in a thin orange haze

I said, "Kiss me, you're beautiful..
These are truly the last days"

You grabbed my hand and we fell into it
Like a daydream or a fever

We woke up one morning and fell a little further down
For sure it's the valley of death

I open up my wallet
And it's full of blood

Sunday, 8 February 2009


i'm amazed at how long some people can sleep for. sophie stayed round last night and hasn't yet risen from her deep sleep in the sauna that is amanda's room. althought i just looked at the clock and it's 12:01, not actually that late.

okay onto the "important stuff". you know when you just really can't be bothered with something? i was looking forward to going out on friday, but when i got in from the city, i took a nap and amanda came in and went SOPH!!! (like it was a crime that i was having a sleep 8 hours before we were due to go out?!) being woken up from that made it increasingly difficult to hype up and get in a good mood for scala. so i didn't bother.
i watched paris hiltons british best friend. cringe and cringe some more.

my cat is making it hard to type right now. aside from what i can only describe as clinically BAD BREATH, he has to try and wriggle his way onto my chest which seems to be his favorite place to sit. and now he is licking himself.